Thursday, May 28, 2020

Daniel's Adoption Story - Written by Both of His Moms

I asked Daniel's birth mother, Mimi, to share her experience with Daniel's adoption story, too. So here are both of our stories.


DANIEL'S ADOPTION STORY - by Rebekah



Daniel's adoption story has a very happy ending! But I figured we should start at the beginning, and for us, the beginning was infertility.

Brian and I were told in 2009 that we would not be able to conceive children on our own. That was heartbreaking news for us. We took some time to think about what we wanted our future to look like. We realized we wanted to be parents and grandparents and the only way we were going to be able to make that happen was through adoption.

We didn't know much about the adoption process at that point. But we did know that we wanted to be in a good place, financially, before we pursued it. We sold our company in 2011 and that gave us the capital to feel like we could start!

We signed up with LDSFS (LDS Family Services) in August of 2011. We flew through the paperwork as fast as we could and we were approved in October of that same year. Then, the waiting began. We had a profile online with LDSFS, we had a profile on adoption.com at Parent Profiles, we got listed with another agency, too, and we had a blog that we used to share information about our family. We even made little pass along cards with our picture and information about our family. And we had many, many neighbors, friends and family sharing our information and rooting for us. 



Even with all of that, we were only contacted by birth mothers twice. The first time, the birth mother had a miscarriage. The second time, we became a family of three! But we waited a long time for that ending. I remember wondering on every New Year's Eve, as the clock struck midnight and we entered a new year if THIS would be the year we brought home a baby. 

As we waited, we slowly prepared for the day we hoped and had faith would come. We bought a baby item, usually an item for the nursery, each month. The crib, the rocker, the bedding, the changing table, etc. We kept it in storage, but we bought it and that was exciting! It felt like we were showing faith and being productive.

In October of 2013, long after the first birth mother had her miscarriage, Brian and I both felt like our baby was coming soon. At the end of that month, we took all those things we had bought and set up our nursery!! We wanted everything to be gender neutral so we went with a Winnie the Pooh theme, and called our nursery "The Hundred Acre Woods". We both felt like our first baby would be a boy, but we wanted to be prepared in case we were wrong.


In November, while we were on a road trip out to the Midwest to see both of our families for Thanksgiving, we got a phone call from our caseworker at LDSFS. She said she had a birth mom that needed a place to stay and she was asking if we could be that place. She said that the birth mother would not place with us, at that point, because it wouldn't be appropriate. But they needed a place for her quickly. We told her we'd chat about it and call her back. And we did. We felt like that was another something proactive that we could do on our adoption journey. So we called her back and told her we'd be happy to house this birth mom. She told us then that she appreciated our willingness, but it would no longer be appropriate for us to house her because she was considering placing with us.  !!!!!  We were thrilled!! We'd been waiting for this moment for so long. Mimi, Daniel's birth mom, emailed us and introduced herself and the baby (a boy, due in six weeks) and asked us some questions. We emailed her back right away and our correspondence continued that way for about three weeks. After that, we got to meet her and the birth father (they asked us to call him Solice) in person. We continued to meet at least once or twice a week until Mimi gave birth. We ate a lot of  food, usually McDonalds or Zupas or Chick-Fil-A. When they made their choice official, Solice (who is an artist) drew us this amazing piece of work. ♥ 


As the time got closer for Daniel to be born, Mimi invited us to go with her to a doctor appointment so we could hear the baby's heartbeat. And she asked us to be in the hospital room with her when the baby was born. We couldn't believe that she would give us so much of what our hearts wanted! We were so thankful and so excited!


Being in the room when Daniel was born will always be a treasured experience for me. Brian was there, too, and for everyone's comfort, he was behind a curtain when Daniel was born. But I was able to see his face the first time it hit the air. And in that moment, something inside me changed. And I knew I would never be the same again. It was like I was tied to this baby - I knew he was mine and we were meant to be a family. I recognized his little scrunched up, purple face and fell head over heels instantly.



Daniel struggled to breathe at first so all of Mimi's plans (Rebekah holds the baby first, birth father cuts the cord) went up in smoke. Mimi had given Brian a hospital bracelet so when Daniel was whisked off, Brian was the one that went with him. I remember pacing around the hospital room in a daze, wondering if we'd really just become parents! After making sure Mimi was settled and everything was in place for her, the doctor made arrangements for me to be able to be with Daniel in the NICU. Brian left, at that point, to go get breakfast for Mimi and Solice. I stayed with Daniel and held on to whatever I could. He had an IV and he was hooked up to a cpap machine. So I held his hand and touched his head. I wanted him to know that I was there, that he wasn't alone. When he was finally able to breathe a little better, the nurses let me hold him. They brought me a rocking chair and I got to snuggle him and sing to him. It was precious and special. ♥ Then a nurse came back and asked if I was the grandma. LOL Well, even that couldn't break the spell I was under!




When Daniel got moved to the regular nursery, we were back in a situation where Brian was able to be with him, but I was not. So I stood outside the nursery windows and watched everything. Again, our doctor spoke with Mimi and the hospital staff and explained the situation so I was able to be with Brian and Daniel and be part of his first bath and his first bottle.





The next day, Mimi and Solice signed the relinquishment papers. They never even hesitated. We spent some more time with them before we took Daniel home. They had dressed Daniel up like batman and given him a little plush Pinky Pie My Little Pony horse. I remember Mimi singing "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star" to him over and over while rocking him. ♥





 It was a hard goodbye for all of us, but I don't think it was hard in the typical way you would expect it to be. We had arranged with Mimi and Solice to have an open adoption, so we knew we would see them soon and would be exchanging texts and pictures often. But we also knew that our relationship would change, because we all wanted what was best for Daniel and felt that too much interaction would be confusing.

I am so grateful that we have an open adoption! I'm thankful when I have questions about Daniel's medical history. I'm thankful that if Daniel has questions, he will be able to ask Mimi anything. I'm thankful that Daniel has another mom so that when I get all sappy and weepy over something like his first lost tooth, I can text Mimi because she cares like I do!!

We try to see Mimi a few times each year. We like to see her for Daniel's birthday, for Birth Mother's Day, and usually one other random time. But we text more often than that. Because I want her in our life, always. Without her, we would still be a family of two. She made us a family of three!!















DANIEL'S ADOPTION STORY - by Mimi

Picture it Sicily 2013…..Okay It wasn’t really Sicily or anywhere close it was Utah and it’s where it all began.


Hi my name is Mimi or Miriam or Miri or any number of names I’ve been called over the years and this is my story of going through to put my son up for adoption.


I was a 19 Year old girl in her first year of college and scared to death about being an adult and trying to do everything on my own. My life felt like it was spiraling out of control trying to help my boyfriend cope with his abusive family as well as hold up and handle my whole new adult life. Suddenly I also find out on top of everything I’m pregnant and I’m horribly terrified. I was afraid to try to have a child when I knew my family wouldn’t want to help and didn’t want to risk putting my son in danger having him anywhere near his father’s abusive family.


After some talking to friends and a few family members I started looking into adoption but I was scared. I was afraid of what kind of people they might be, what questions might he have? Will he know that I love him even if I gave him up? What if something happens and they need medical information but don’t have it? I was terrified and being adopted myself made me think of the issues I’d had with the closed adoption where we didn’t have any medical information and made me think of all the questions I’ve had throughout my life. That’s when I heard about Open adoptions, an adoption where I could still meet the parents and know them and if they ever had any questions they could ask me. If it ever got too hard or became too much we could cut contact but at least there was a chance there to answer the questions and give them any information they may need. At this point I started looking through families and stumbled upon Brian and Rebekah.


I was told to try sending them an email and spent a few hours pouring over it looking at it thinking “What do I say and will they like me”. Finally I worked up the courage and sent the first email, and a few hours later I got a reply and so began what very quickly became the start of something amazing. In the first week we exchanged more than 100 emails just going back and forth all the time talking about our likes and dislikes, talking about silly family stories and our favorite foods just about everything. It was so easy to talk to them and for the first time in months I started to get the feeling that things might turn out okay.


As time went on we talked constantly and eventually I met them in person and we ate homemade delicious (not even kidding right now like it was to die for) Cinnamon Rolls that Rebekah had made for the event. After that we got to go around more and have more “dates” where we hung out and I got to know them. The more we talked and the more time I spent with them the more safe I felt the more relaxed I got. Initially it was supposed to be just my ex and I in the hospital room but I wanted to ask Rebekah to be there cause I was scared my mom wouldn’t be there no one else would be there and I was terrified. Rebekah smiled and laughed when we talked about it and I admitted I really didn’t know how to say it besides “Do you wanna be in the room with me while I scream my head off having this kid cause I’m terrified and don’t wanna be alone?” She agreed and I felt this wave of relief again while I realized that I could be okay with her there.


As it drew closer to my due date we spent a lot of time talking and even had a night where I asked them to come over so I could make them my tasty spaghetti and sauce and to try to distract myself from how big I was getting and how close I was to not having that weight there anymore (because believe me at the end you just want it done with it’s cute when they kick but it’s nice to not just suddenly go I HAVE TO PEE RIGHT NOW!) That night we all sat and talked and laughed and Brian made a little bit of a joke that I’m just gonna be late and that rather than having the baby on the 16th I was gonna have him on the 18th. We all laughed and continued our night of jokes, good food and good company.


Finally The week came that the baby was due I was so excited at this point to get to see this little child I had made and to see that I actually could make a human. I was excited to watch Brian and Rebekah see their son for the first time and excited to know that no matter what happened in my life that this little boy would be safe in a home that loved him with parents who could give him the world. Then the unthinkable happens, the 16th comes an goes and nothing he’s still just kicking inside happy as can be but not trying to leave just yet. You see he heard his soon to be dad and just had to go with the joke so what happens? January 18th I’m woken up by contractions, The 18th the same day Brian made the joke about me having him. I was going to text Rebekah but thought I’d wait to be sure the contractions continued and they did through the day. Mid day I decided to finally text Rebekah and I did it the only proper way in this situation: by making a joke. Me: “What did Brian do?!” Rebekah: “What do you mean what happened, what's wrong??” Me: “Well you see it’s the 18th and this morning I was woken up by contractions. How did he know this is he really magic and not just a magician?” Rebekah is ecstatic and runs to tell Brian who is surprised to hear his joke is actually coming true and that he is truly magic not just a magician (though he will probably still deny it I see through his magical tricks)


That night we all went to the hospital to have who would soon be known as Daniel Fox South, their first child and the baby that I actually made who didn’t actually turn out to be an alien even if I questioned a few times (let’s be honest kicking is cool but also feels a little scary at first especially when you’ve been shown Prometheus for the first time while you are pregnant). In the car on the way my ex pulled out starburst asking if any of us wanted any and we all laughed and ate some. We went through the night and at 4am on January 19th came the little cry the sweet little boy, their first son, they got to laugh and see this tiny little baby. We laughed and we cried but we had a good time. They came everyday till we left the hospital and every day we smiled and laughed and made even more memories.


Putting a child up for adoption can be hard, it can be scary and can be an emotional process but for me it was worth it. My son never had to see me in the abusive relationships he never had to know what it was like or to see the fighting. He’s grown up with amazing parents who have shown him unconditional love every single day. He’s gotten to learn about everything he’s ever wanted to and has been given every opportunity to learn more. He’s grown up knowing his feelings are valid and being treated with so much love and is one of the happiest little boys you’ll ever see. He’s been supported in everything he’s wanted to do. Become a singer? He got a karaoke machine with lots of songs and got to learn about music and singing. Become a cop? He’s gotten to meet cops see the inside of a police car and even given his own little cop car. I may have given them the chance to be parents but Brian and Rebekah gave me the chance to see a happy healthy son who never has had to know just how hard and scary life can be.


Eventually someone will come along and they will give him another huge gift. They will give him the chance to be a brother and know what love it is to have a sibling. This person will give him an amazing gift to learn and grow a close bond with someone that he hasn’t had yet. It truly is a gift to know that he’s happy healthy and has his needs so easily fulfilled and to know that he still knows just how much he is loved every single day. Pregnancy can be hard and thinking of giving up your baby can be even scarier but when it’s a family like this you get to see just how amazing a gift it can be to know this family. They are my everything and I love them more than anything in this world.


Tuesday, May 19, 2020

About Daniel (updated 10/1/21)


Daniel was born in Utah in 2014 and has lived in Utah ever since! He doesn't have any siblings yet, but we're working on it - that's the purpose of this blog, right?!

Daniel is THE. BEST. KID. EVER.

He has brought joy and laughter to our house since the day we brought him home from the hospital. I am grateful every day for the miracle it is to be his mom.


I mean, look at those lips!! And those eyes!!!



He was the sweetest baby. He didn't cry much and when he did, we always knew how to soothe him. His first year was such a joy - and man, did it fly by!






In his second year, he started to have "things". Like, during that second year, he was totally into cords. Charging cables, vacuum cords, etc.



That was followed by construction trucks. And Blippi. And mega blocks. And sand. And garbage trucks. We would have trash day picnics and would sit out on the front lawn, waiting for the trash truck to come by. And it became very clear that his favorite foods were fruits and vegetables.








Soon his interests expanded to bugs and dinosaurs and sharks. I know more about them now than I ever did before Daniel!







Then he moved into a reptile phase. And he's still ! He specifically loves snakes, but he's interested in lizards, komodo dragons, crocodiles...you name it, if it's reptilian, he's fascinated.





But his current phase is law enforcement. And he has gone all-in here! He was a police officer for Halloween in 2019, which definitely started it all. We have a neighbor who works with the Utah County Sheriff's office and he helped to encourage this interest. By the time we got to Christmas in 2019, all Daniel wanted was a police car! So Santa obliged and he now has a cruiser to patrol the neighborhood in. His bike has also turned into his "police motorcycle". He is almost always wearing his official gear! For Christmas last year, he asked Santa for SWAT gear (he was a SWAT officer for Halloween in 2020, too) including a helmet and backpack and spy gear. Santa is pretty good to this kid, so he got it all and then some!









Through all his changing interests, Daniel has loved both of our dogs with all his heart. They have been his buddies and his playmates. I am grateful for our dogs. ♥

Daniel and Puga


Daniel and Mel

Daniel is in second grade this year and has such a great teacher! He loves her. He is constantly bringing her produce from our garden, including a watermelon! 

His reading is phenomenal and it's so much fun to do math with him. He has a creative mind, so when he's supposed to be writing the math fact for a word problem, I have a hard time convincing him not to draw the object that is being counted along with the number.  When he gets the chance to draw, he goes all out! In fact, his awesome teacher has encouraged the kids to come up with goals for the new year. Daniel's goal was to create museum art! He's had amazing artistic skills since he was tiny. And, as you'll see in the pictures below, he can work with many, many mediums. 

A mega-blocks creation - he made sooo many of these!

He made a "Daniel" out of his clothes and some paper he cut out and some crayons!

He took my lobster tail and remade the lobster with the rest of his food - our waiters loved him!

A play dough dinosaur, nest, and egg.

Dinosaurs. I love that he would put hearts in them!

A thank you letter Daniel illustrated for our neighbor after he had arranged to have a few police men come and show Daniel the cruisers and sirens and loudspeaker for his 6th birthday.

Daniel went through a phase where he was pretty scared at night. I would tell him to imagine a world made of candy, and he asked if we could make it. So, there's our frosting grass with marshmallow flowers, our lemonade river with Swedish fish, our cookie path with chocolate dirt and gummy worms, the Hershey kiss mountains with the sour patch rainbow, cotton candy clouds, and an orange slice for the sun. He was soooo happy.

He loves to draw with sidewalk chalk! This is a dinosaur. I love the coloring!

Sometimes we get him bath crayons and then the shower becomes his canvass.

This chalk snake is pretty amazing.

The kid loves the beach!! He drew sooo many things that day, and they were all very large. It's amazing to me that he has such a great handle on perspective.

Daniel is good and kind, smart and strong, brave and patient, and creative and truthful. And he really wants to be a big brother. He will be a great one, too. He has such a big heart. I can't wait to see  him in the role of protector, friend, teacher, and confidant that I know he will be to our next addition!! ♥

A few random, fun facts about Daniel:
  • Daniel has lost six teeth so far! And only two of them have had permanent teeth grow in, so he totally looks like a jack o' lantern!
  • Daniel loves music. He was in love with several Owl City songs a couple of years ago and that  year, Owl City had released a new album and was having a concert in Salt Lake! So we took little four year old Daniel to see Owl City - that was the best night!! He super loves it when we crank whatever his favorite song currently is and have a dance party in our front room - or even in the car!
  • He gets cold easily and loves to "sun himself" on our deck out back with our dog, Mel or snuggle up in blankets with us.
  • Daniel loves ice cream - vanilla and cookie mint in particular. His favorite meal is a German pancake with fruit salad and tater tots. He won't touch soda - at all! It's too "spicy" for him. But he loves lemonade!